that I will take a break from blogging.
Not because I don’t feel good – only that I need time for myself.
Now back at my place and I’m truly okay … ever since I left mom on the hospital I have felt warmth in my heart and a calmness that I haven’t had for a very long time.
Last night I slept so well and comfortable in my own bed, something I haven’t done for over a year.
I have been so aware of that mom hasn’t liked the quality of life she had the last years. My mom was crystal clear in her mind and her body was given up more and more for each year, she was bound to a wheel chair and the last 6 months her sight was disappearing rapidly and TV was her only entertainment in her life and lately she haven’t been able to watch that neither.
So the last months she has been preparing me that she was going to leave … with sentences and this last weekend it was very obvious that she wanted to leave and I didn’t have any problems with that – it’s was her time, it was her life and it was her choice. I didn’t have any right to not letting her go.
She had done her job with life and me … she knew I was ready to be on my own.
So to you, my friends: Please .. don’t go anywhere, because I need you more than ever now – and just give me some time and I promise to be back.
On Tuesday starts the practical part of this …
“Ill be missing you
Thinking of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
Ill be missing you “
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